'used to'

i am currently reading a book called 'let your life speak' by parker palmer. i am at a place in the book where he talks about deciphering the clues from our childhood years{before our true self and life dreams are tainted by the world and that of it} to find out who we truly are, whose we truly are.... and who we truly desire to become. i feel often as though i lost my true self back some time ago... and that now i am a collage of one too many ideas, people, faces, thoughts... i desire to know who i am. who i was created to be and who i want to become. without knowing these, we wander through life confused and wearing faces that are not truly ours. so, clues from our childhood eh? what brought me joy when i was a child, and what made me feel sorrow? what did i excel at and what were my limitations? it already seems so long ago, as does yesterday.